Wednesday, December 28, 2011



as i'm sitting at work, alone in the office, finishing up emails, I stare at the white walls and realize I really am not happy.. my mind goes into the circles it always goes into and i pick up my phone, text you and say, "I'm feeling depressed" then you called me immediately and say, "you wake up every day feeling like me?" and I responded, "yeah, I don't know what's wrong with me, I just wake up angry, upset, sad, depressed... life just doesn't feel like normal.." then you laughed and said, "you are the definition of...."
I start to laugh a little while you pause for your effect, because I know you and I have the strangest friendship and without you even saying the next word I know it's your way of telling me I'm just fine but overall I know you understand me, which is why I turned to you first to whine about my emotional mind..

then you laugh with me and respond with, "nah you're cool, chill out man."

I sigh and suddenly I realize I'll always have you somewhere in my life
and for the quick 5 minute conversation that probably cost more than my monthly phone bill,
I feel okay again

Monday, December 26, 2011



blue jeans, white shirt,
you walked into the room
and you made my eyes burn

Tuesday, December 20, 2011



christmas to me other than celebrating the birth of jesus christ?

to every beginning there is an ending, don't ever forget this

Friday, December 16, 2011

Friday, December 9, 2011

gulity - al bowlly


6:30 PM mg: i told you i dont care
  i feel like your trying to push me away
 me: i'm just trying to help you
  because in the long run, you'll throw your towel in and leave me
  everyone always does

11 minutes
6:42 PM mg: everyone has their issues esther, you may think im just saying this right now but with you i like you the way you are
6:43 PM me: i'm sorry i'm so stubborn
6:44 PM mg: you know i want to be with you right?
 me: i just can't believe it
  so my mind won't allow it to be true

8 minutes
6:52 PM mg: well, the way you make me feel when i see you, when im not with you, and that feeling makes me wanna just grab you and and just stare at your face and kiss you on the forehead, ive never felt like that and im not giving up
6:56 PM you may think im gonna leave the whole time were together but im not giving up
6:57 PM and im not gonna go anywhere