i feel so alone because no one can relate to me,
i can't speak my mind to anyone
without feeling like I'm walking around on broken glass
i think that's what angers me the most now a days
fuck

vampire weekend

The farther I push myself away from the hardcore scene, the less I'm disappointed in people, the less I'm depressed, the less drama I seem to be thrown in. It's just such a sad thing that people have the potential to be such good friends or just people having so much in common just thrive off drama, pointless bullshit and small talk. Like I always say, I guess people will always be people.

I'm ready for a new life.
New scenery, new city, new friends, new climate, new house, new roommates, new hair, new style, new wardrobe, new attitude, A job. But just not a new boyfriend...
it's so hard to decide on what I want to do because there's nothing but disappointment here in Chicago. It's terrible to say but whenever Chris and I's relationship is over, I plan to be out of here.. but then again I don't ever see us breaking up...ever.

So what should I do with my mindset? After a year I still don't feel I'm home.

the heater blowing

nothing really special planned for today
church, family, photoshoot, dinner



Today is also the Korean New Year so I'm eating a huge Korean lunch with new found family!
I'm so grateful for being in love, having the friends I do, having my god mother in full effect.


happy valentine's day world

IAMX

my mind is slowly just giving up it's willing to fight,
i just don't give a fuck any more

it's so easy to hate someone you barely know,
so let's keep it going world

Tous Les Garcons Et Les Filles - Francoise Hardy

I just want to lose so much weight that I'm almost to the point of being called disgustingly skinny.


I don't know what to do with my life, I just wanna be successful.

let go - frou frou

i wish i could drink some jasmine oolong right now
i'm so thirsty for it and i can't sleep..

i haven't slept yet, i think there's something wrong with me
i'm so cold, i'm willing to just lay in bed for hours
knowing i won't fall asleep soon just so i can stay warm

take you on a cruise - interpol

I wish people could just get over themselves.

metric

friendships and hardcore

monster - lady gaga

I think its time to start losing as much weight the healthiest way possible.

people are forever people, so just fuck them all